BangBang. My baby shot me down.

2008-08-28T05:45:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT!

Exams are finally over!!

No more whining t eugene about my brain exploding or wanting t cry cos i want t sleep and fuck studying.

Say hello to 1 and a half months of holidays.

But somehow, i feel, empty.

Though i know i'm not in school half the time (is half an understatement? hahaha)

but it's the feeling you get when you know you have a routine t follow and assignments t complete.

Hmmm.. the busy feeling.

Yea but it's all empty now.

No bf, no job, no activities in mind besides partaye night every friday.

Tell me how!

Okay never mind, i will open Words later and plan out a whole list of things t do (though 3/4 of it will still be undone when the hols end)

because then it will make me feel less empty.

& today's ess gra paper was a joke!

I went in late and came out early and all i could vomit out was crap.

First question was "List the steps to reset a workspace in illustrator"

ME WROTE "Click on File, then Options, then Reset Workspace"

HAHAHA DO THEY EVEN HAVE THIS OPTION CALLED RESET WORKSPACE?!

I think i sure get A liaoz.

Running back in the rain after school.

Didn't enjoy it a single bit. Made me feel more pathetic. So cold. And lost.

But the hihao horzzz, so kind, he kept looking out for me while we ran in the rain cos i was like "AHHH I SCARED I SLIP AND FALL LEH!"

But hahaha, i wouldn't be running in the rain anymore when i get my 3 :D

Napped when i got home then dinner at 85 with Nuo, Sam, Best, Yuan, Ming, Nic, Wood and Kram.

Missed them a hell lot!

& Sam made me laugh like crap.

We were walking on the pathway and then she said "Let's take a picture. I brought my cam out today."

And she fished out this super retro cam and introduced it as Diana.

I laughed for 3847283 minutes.

And then she said "Wait, this is Diana's headgear" and she took out this extra light thing t fix onto the cam.

HAHAHAHAHAHA WTH SHE IS CUTE DE LOR.

Aquarius after dinner where they experimented something and i just laid on the deck chair plugged in.

And then HK Cafe with DKoh aka my Bonnie and Clyde.

XJT's song was playing when i got on his car and i was like wtf why this song!

But you know how sometimes you feel fucked when something reminds you of a certain someone yet choose not t turn away from it. Like stay there and continue being slapped in the face and bang bang in the heart.

Or maybe you could say that i just didn't wanna stop thinking of him.

Hahaha i know right... so gian song.

Okay so anyway i laughed like hell with DKoh which balanced everything off.

Awesome coffee-talk.

Great! It's raining now.

I am going to bed.

Good night love.

I still miss you.

2008-03-27T07:18:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,
It's 718am
& my heart broke again.
Wouldn't mind exchanging 10 times of fever/gastric/whatever fer 1 heartbreak.
Prince and princess didn't live happily ever after.
I thought they always do.

May you find love again.

With love,
xxxx

2008-03-27T02:54:00.007+08:00

254am.
I'm leaving everything behind.

2008-03-26T00:46:00.007+08:00

Was looking thru old testimonials on friendster (YES AGAIN) when i came across this.

Dizz Nick
04/2/2006 7:48 pm
hiee hiee worxss?? ima bloody groosss doggie with a pathetically gross language! i lurvbe EuuuxEx. i tink tts enuf to make ur hair stand. i have yet to see ur testi for me so im gona rite sumtin short. its alrite tt u first time use keyboard la. since u are used to chattin with snail mail. never mind la. i will train u to use a computer.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA WTF IS SNAIL MAIL!
ZOMG I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING. (btw, this was written by nick t nuo)
haha many more luh. but lazy t ctrl c ctrl v ctrl c ctrl v.

Oh and just now i was trying on old clothes. (I REALLY HAVE NOTHING T DO)
I used t be a topshop size 8-10
but i'm a size 6 now.
hahaha i WAS a ball.
I needa get rid/sell my size 8s and10s fer more 6s.
Soon.

Alright, off t smoke, bathe and sleep.
Good night!

Piglet smells like you so i shut it away in my wardrobe.

2008-03-25T02:55:00.006+08:00

Today,
my heart broke.
died on me.

But love comes with heartbreaks, right?

& today,
I made a wasted trip down t the clinic cos i was still having my period.
Down t tp t submit my forms.
Met Best t buy the stuff from 85 and back t Nuo's place t wait fer the auspicious hour. hahaha.

Surprised Miu by turning up at her place with balloons, her favourite tiramisu cake and all her favourite food.
hahahaha still got formation hor!
Ate a lil and i felt like puking.
They suspect i'm anorexic.
haha wth! Me? Anorexic?
Like that my eating disorder fail until sibei jialat.
Yeah but they said i grew skinnier leh! :D
& yea, i admit i have eating issues :(
Played some stupid/lame game called 'yi deng zhu' (one pig?).
HAHAHA SOUNDS MEGA SILLY BUT SUPER FUNNY OKAY!

After everything, headed down t Blu Oasis with Best and the rest.
Debated over whether ming or nick's more gross. wth hahaha.
The things they can think of.. tsk.

Today, Best said something
"Girls like bad boys. But girls love bad boys even more when they change t good boys for them"
WA LAO SO TRUE RIGHT!
& that's how i ended up falling fer a certain someone so deeply.
But oh well.. i have trust issues.

& i'm learning t move on.

The nights are so unkind.
Bring back those nights when i held you beside me.

2008-03-24T01:43:00.004+08:00

So i'm blogging again. right..
I need a new laptop.
& till my laptop arrives, there will be no photos posted.
So this is gonna be boring. like boring boring.
Gotta be up early tmr fer my medical appointment which i have been procrastinating since last week. haha. what's new?
& erm.. i have t make the trip down t tp t submit my forms.
& tmr's miu miu's 18th.
In short, tmr's gonna be a bbbuuusssyyy day.
Just as well, can keep my mind off matters fer the time being.
& after all the drama, i'm back t being single.
Haha i can sense a certain someone gloating over my misery.
But oh well!
School's starting on 21st april fer me. like finally.
Have been bumming around too much.

Okay, hair's finally dry.
Good night people!

So i'm learning t fall with no safety net t cushion the blow.
I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me.
There's a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree.

2007-11-21T06:30:00.000+08:00

Hello. It's almost 630 in the morning and i'm not in the right state of mind.
When i say not right, i don't mean emo emo but the complete opposite.
I
just
feel
like
laughing
at
nothing

okay, i'm gonna call someone up and laugh.

2007-11-20T06:18:00.000+08:00

Happening night!
Chomp chomp fer dinner, Selegie, Sixth Ave, Holland, Songs Sisters' House, Punggol, Mount Faber, Kent Ridge Park.
Darling, me, 184, wz = LG TEAM
HAHAHAHA laugh until bth.
Alright, can't say more if not darling will kill me.

Good night!

2007-11-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

Last night/this morning at about 4am,
i received a call from darling telling me he was outside my house.
nb didn't have time t do anything t my face (luckily eyebrowns were alr drawn)
met him in my pjs and naked face. sibei cool man!
He was so sweet t come over after drinking at bq.
Chatted till morning before he left.
:):):)<3<3<3

2007-11-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday alr and i still..
haven't found any job.
have plenty of things left undone for eg. visiting the hairdresser, gg fer pedicure, watching the vcds i've rented.. :(
Time t kick the nightlife routine and quit nua-ing at home.

*

FRIDAY..
Mr Beans fer dinner with Darling. (they serve very yummy food)

found it very amusing that he could finish up the entire steak when he just had dinner before coming t fetch me.

Kept t my promise :)
Headed down t 184184's pub t accompany him and wz after our late din2.

Thank you 184184. this is nice t the maximum! Baileys + i don't know what.

That night, he mixed fer me the weirdest-but-mega-nice drinks ever.
Just fer me hor!
Had Baileys + i don't know what + Chivas + Martell + i don't know what + blue colour and smells like sprite alcohol + Beer + Jim Bean + coffee-smelling alcohol + Screwdriver...
cb was super high that night. (!!!)

Set alarm at 4pm the next day but got up at 5 plus plus plus instead.
What
is
wrong
with
me
?!

Down t vivo with darling.
Shopped! :D:D:D
Spent erm.. half a bomb?

Hogs Breath Cafe fer dinner :D:D:D:D:D

Chilled out at cabana in the night.
Was challenging burnout with darling.
He still owes me.. let's see. 2000 + 2040 = 4040 dollars
hahaha stupid!

Ban mian again fer supper with darling, 184 and wz.
really really very very nice!
once you start, you can't stop.
hahaha
ZOMG
!!

ANYWAY..

i only had orange juice at cabana.
no alcohol :))

TP yesterday.

for you.

and now,
i'm feeling hungry after all this blogging.
Darling's out with the rest at bq while sick sick me is stuck at home resting.
:(((

& it doesn't help much when you're missing your 2 besties.

2007-11-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

Finally got t meet up with miao, nuo and the rest yesterday. :D
Darling was supposed t wake me up at TWOOOO but he got up at THREEEE. thanks leh!
rushed like a mad woman and my good ol' dog chewed up my teddy bear and left a super big mess in my room and poor me had t clear it up and mop the floor before i left. :(

slacked around in tp design school canteen.
did some catching up.
hahaha realized that my news all super outdated + old fashion + not cool and funky.
poor lil mountain tortoise me.
had the very famous western food. stall uncle kept disturbing me and B.E. MING stood at the side sniggering.
(don't make me tell them what's B.E. hor. hurhur)
so vic and nuo left fer church after our late lunch/early dinner while me, miao, ming and jingyun headed t tm starbucks fer coffee and t meet up with the rest.

yayy! so long never see them.
so happy happy happy t just hear them talking cock again..
feels really good just sitting thr watching miao play my psp, disturb her, confide in her and listen t the guys talk their lame talk over coffee.
i seriously miss secondary school days and our lil gatherings :(

chilled out till about 10 before darling came t fetch me.
wanted t ask darling send miao home but she shy shy. haha.

we all (darling, me, benson, shenlong, kewang, winston, zhiyong, shaun and ben) headed t sam's house, armed with our psps ready t battle.
shenlong still bring charger. hahahaha.
nowadays we all siao psp hor.
&& i wanna put running lights on my psp. WHOAA SIBEI TIONG HOR!
hehehe. jk.
die die die i think i'm becoming more unfeminine.
when ming saw the games in my psp, he was like "wah why all so fierce one. i thought all yer games is those comb barbie doll hair"
hahahahaha! i laughed until i almost hyperventilate and die.

played till 2 in the morning then went t east coast fer billiard.
sat thr with 184184. started 'betting' with him. gave him the odds.
hehehe cheap thrill.

had the benson-says-super-nice-banmian fer sup2.
really very nice leh!!
darling sent me home in the early early early morning
then chatted on the phone with him till early morning.

--------------------------------------------------------------------
today...
marks our first month of being tgt.
16th october. 16th november.
though our honeymoon period's not that honey but still memorable (:
i love you jr. <3

meeting darling tonight.
oh yea.. he wanted t get me a laptop cos i complained that my present laptop is so gay but nono i don't want.
i really don't want.

okay.. maybe not now. haha.

:D:D:D
byebye!!

*blogger doesn't allow me t post my photos. next entry okay?

2007-11-14T22:48:00.001+08:00

Just got home and i doubt i'll be able t sleep.
Have been sleeping only when the sun rises fer the past few weeks.
Goodness! Eyebags becoming BEEEEGER and BEEEEEEEGER.
Bo bian ke insist one. hahaha.

Tonight's another drinking night at Home.
Finished up the balance then Darling, 184 and i went t geylang fer rochor tau huay.
started talking cock with 184. laugh until nail drop. :(
sibei hard t maintain with him around. haha.

Darling promised me donuts tmr.
We'll see ;)

Take a look at my wallpaper.
Hehehe.

I'm bored so i'll continue blogging.
Don't care ke insist. haha.

Celebrated kangaroo's gf's birthday at Home last weekend.
Before that, Darling brought me shopping. :D
Supposed t hit the limit of 1k but failed :((((
(arbo darling you give me yer card sua. hahahaha.)
So after admiring the christmas lightings, we had din2 at swensens.
That thin ass could actually finish 2 main course. (!!!)
That's insane.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIQI!

This is twinny!

Hello baby!

Birthday girl hor.

Good night!

2007-11-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha. this is crazy. i'm blogging again!
i hope this one won't turn stale and rusty like the rest.

okay.. i don't know how and whr t start.
hm.. alright.. i just came back from jogging with neh neh.
waiting fer Darling t bring me for rochor tau huay (i have this craving fer it all of a sudden) then t east coast t drink again.
have been meeting Darling EVERY NIGHT ever since i flew back from italy. crazy i know. but i LOVEEEE. :D
when i told nuo that, she was like "UH?!" hahaha.

oh well.. life's pretty boring and dull now.
you won't be interested in my mundane affairs.
have been wanting t find a job since like a million years ago but procrastinating till now.
my gp teacher wasn't wrong when she said i procrastinate alot. haha.

Darling got me a psp few days back because he couldn't bear me getting upset over his ex-girlfriend's mean actions. (truth is, i wasn't that affected by her)
have been hooked on the psp ever since.
& i get to download games fer free at his friend's shop. :D

Down t tp tmr t meet the tp-ians fer late lunch/early dinner.
White can wake up. Yes white can. hahahaha.

Alright, gonna bathe my stinking cum sweaty body now.
Later darling kp why i always take so long t get ready.
Ciaos!

See the link.

2007-08-27T15:17:00.000+08:00

Imitation is the best form of flattery.
Aww.. I feel so flattered.

17th birthday.

2007-05-24T20:16:00.000+08:00

17th birthday coming.
yayy! i'm so excited i can't stop talking about it.
birthday chalet from 3rd-5th june at tanah merah safra.
only close friends invited :D

and now.. fer the long awaited birthday wishlist.
goes out t you people!!! (especially bestie. hurhur)

1) YSL wallet
2) Limited Edition Birkenstocks
3) Roxy bikini
4) Aldo white heels
5) D&G belt
6) Havis
7) Forever21, Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Zara, Anna Sui Vouchers/Ladies' wear
8) Nail polish
9) Ipod nano
10) Dresses
11) Cardigans
12) Loewe shoes
13) YSL white tote bag
14) Sincere birthday cards, letters...
15) Cash
16) The presence of my close friends ( dear god, i want my xue zhang back! )
17) PSP ******

& sometimes i really desire t be 18.